Questions for the Poet Who Also Paints
Sylvia Manning
for Albert Huffstickler
Your painting of the woman dressed for
town as they once did,
if they could, our countrywomen —
certainly never doubting
if they should, for it was a code to dress
for town, at least in near best —
(even after I was grown and certainly in
her time, all her time) even
before we needed more reference frame for
culture, back when culture was
what you got at opera or fancy lectures,
if you were rich — then and there,
those kind of women. . .
This woman in some synthetic blue-green,
maybe aquamarine, in her
so called costume jewelry and made-up
pretty-if-she-weren't-so-plump face
beneath a do of curls she scrimped to
afford to have done — to be presentable,
as was said, to make herself presentable
She's not just anybody's mother come to
town now turned itself to city undone,
not nice, not a place to do your best to
dress for, no. She's mine.
She breaks my heart. She makes me
wonder if when Mama got to Heaventown
it was after all just a place God let get
rundown, interstitial, probably gone
to video stores, second-hand porn, all
polystyrene littered.
Your woman with her handbag matching black
patent shoes,
hopefully there before winds chilled, as
we were not to wear black patent after Labor Day,
holding it with both hands in front of
her, clutching primly the little that protected
that place where babies came from, even if
none would be coming again from her
With look in her eye as she waits for the
Promise, the masculine Divine,
suggesting a subliminal worry behind the
best she can do to be pretty
that He'll say, after all, "She's too
fat. I told her that
a million times if I told her once,"
and she'll be sent back, to where she
can't even window shop or stop
for a nice cup of coffee, to where between
the cleaning and the worrying
she sobs, to where the town kids never go,
across the river, across from the mill,
Your woman in her blue green street length
three-quarter sleeved dress
And hat (not to forget) there in the
decade, one guesses, of the lost dreams, the '70s
Who did you think she might be when she
emerged from nothing, having done
her dead level best, as people said, to be
presentable, as was always called for,
even if she couldn't help looking very
scared and a little too fat?
Did she speak to say why she'd come to
town? Did she ask for me?
First published in Parting Gifts, winter
2001
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